Yesterday was not easy, but it is done. This phase of my treatment is complete. The chemo was unhooked and I had my last radiation treatment. It was wonderful to walk out of there without all of the extra equipment attached to me. The port is still in place, but the rest of it is outta here! Do not take this to mean that I am not grateful for this treatment. While it did impede my movement in several ways, it also helped to save me. Something to consider!I didn't feel well enough yesterday to answer well wishing e-mails or even to post a blog entry, so I gave into it and rested. Today is much better.
I plan to return to work tomorrow, barring any complications, and I am looking very forward to that. In a week I will return to facilitating my meditation group until time for surgery, and I am really looking forward to that. Meditation practice and philosophy have really served me in this process.
In 5 weeks I will visit the surgeon to schedule surgery. Elizabeth, Bliss, and Marjie will accompany me. I want as many of my spiritual warrior women around me as possible for this visit! The others will be there in spirit.
After surgery I will rest a few weeks and then begin intensive chemo.
I am already feeling so much better, but as friend and fellow cancer survivor Dave said to me in a recent email, "After radiation it does take several weeks for the body to start coming back, so don't expect a sudden burst of energy. Getting better every day in every way is the mantra. Also be aware of possible mental after effects. It can be similar to Post Trauma Syndrome - sudden crying, depression and feeling fearful. Your meditation experience will be a great boon to you. One of the Olympic swimmers has cancer and his mantra is, "I have cancer, it doesn't have me."
Hopefully I will not experience these mental after-effects, but I most definitely agree with and try to live by that mantra. Thanks, Dave!
Another friend said to me this morning, it is time for a dance of joy. Accordingly, I believe the following photo is in order. Some of my best friends - Marjie, Dani (Me), and Bliss, in our best Charley's Angels pose a while back. Who knew, at that time, that I would be using these photos in this way! Keep everything - you never know when you may need it!
Ladies and Gentlemen, I leave you with the "Dance of Joy" (thanks, Melna, for that descriptive!)
2 comments:
what a beautiful rainbow! The rainbow in the Bible is a symbol of God's promise to man to be there for us. A truly divine connection.I found some samples below. God definitely has YOU in the palm of his hand Tanya and knows everything you are going through.
I also love the one of us as Charlie's Angels. Ahhh, it's all coming together now, rainbows and angels. HMMMMM :) (Tanya, that is to make you smile with joy!:) Love, Marjie
"God said, 'Here is the sign of the Covenant I make between myself and you and every living creature with you for all generations: I set my rainbow in the clouds and it shall be a sign of the Covenant between me and the earth." (Genesis 9:12-13)
"When I gather the clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will recall the Covennant between myself and you and every living creature of every kind. And so the waters shall never again become a flood to destroy all things of flesh." (Genesis 9:14-15).
"When the rainbow is in the clouds I shall see it and call to mind the everlasting Covenant between God and every living creature of every kind that is found on the earth." (Genesis 9:16).
(there are more rainbow passages if you want, I will send. :)
Thank you, Marjie! What a pleasant surprise to be able to read this first thing in the morning!
I wish EVERYONE rainbows today! At the end of my rainbow is the pot of gold which holds all of the miraculous gifts being given me right now, and not the least of those gifts if my friends. Marjie - you are a gift! I love you very much, Tanya
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