Scans, Radioactivity, Indians, Update - Priceless

Today was amazing. Partly because yesterday I let some fear creep in. I am on top of that again, and I feel great.

I'm not even sure how to begin, so I will start with the tests themselves. I went for my CT/PET scan this afternoon. Of course there was major road work going on and traffic was crawling. I watched the minutes tick by as I slooooooooowly made my way to the entrance of the Hospital. Finally, I made it, and got to my appointment 10 minutes early.

Once there, I was filled with a radioactive fluid which they told me would highlight any cancer in my body that may have spread. That had to sit in me for an hour before I could be scanned. Then, the computers went down, so another hour. At last, I was put on the table and the test began.

They did everything, and took lots of pictures. Unfortunately, I won't have any results until I see the doctor. Which doctor? I have no idea, but for some reason I feel ok about this. My spirits are high and I have no other way to describe this inner feeling I have, ... I just feel good about it.

My boss would tell you I have a very good 6th sense. He has utilized it on many an occasion! Well, Dewees, this is one of those times. The usual caveat of 'I could be wrong, but' ... I just feel like something good is going to come of this.

At work today, people whom I have only gotten to know recently sat in prayer for me while the test was going on. That's a wow. Thank you so much. My sweet sister, Taryn, who is suffering from Parkinson's disease, has been there for me like no other, despite what she has going on. That is love, and I feel honored to have you for my sister. You'll get a dedicated blog entry soon. This past Wednesday, Susan Blair from the Bar Assoc. came to visit me and chat -- another great friend. I wish I could name everyone. If you are not here now, you will be eventually. Thanks to Carole Wegner for that great hug.

People in my meditation group took time out of their day to send up prayers for me while the test was happening. That's another wow. Thank you. People from all over the place, even in other states ... praying for me. I don't even know half of them. WOW! I definitely feel it, and I know the Creator is listening. In fact, for the first time in a long time, I'm not even tired today. Usually I am exhausted, one of the symptoms of my illness, but today I feel full of energy. Thanks to everyone, from the bottom of my heart.

I know my former boss, Russell Stair and his wife, Sarah, are reading this blog, and I thank them for the very sweet card I received today. They promised prayers, too. Everyone knows I just love Russell, and his wife is a doll. Thank you, thank you. You made me feel so cared for. I even heard from my former, former boss, Kristy Hazelwood -- I am so blessed!

And, Josh, my newest boss, did a dedicated Rosary for me last night. How can I be so very lucky? I am lucky.

Anyone who knows me or who knows anything about me at all knows I've been involved with the Native American community for some time now. This Sunday, my meditation group (nighttime group) and some of my friends from the Native Community are gathering at my friend Maribeth's house and will do an Indian healing circle for me - thanks to Joe for facilitating the Native part of this. There will be lots of my close friends there, and I just love that this is happening. Susan even made a beautiful poster for me. I am just overwhelmed by kindness.

Everytime I go for a test, I get a text from one of my best friends, and artist extroadinaire, Marjie, wishing me well. That always encourages me. Love you, Marjie.

So, when I am looking for gifts, I can say that the last couple of days have offered really big ones. I have more friends than I could have ever imagined. AND, I'm making new ones.

If I had to get sick, then the gift in that is discovering all the love and care that has surrounded me all along, and I never knew it. Until now.

So, with a heart full of gratitude and high hopes, I will end this blog entry.  I only hope that I have adequately expressed how much everyone's care, concern, and prayers have meant to me.

I say to all my friends, old and new - way to be. Definitely way to be. Lots of love and gratitude back to you.

I feel good about this. I do. Your care is priceless.